The longing for God. The deepest desire in man. We long for Him because we were made for Him. When He made us, our souls experienced His love, experienced His gaze, His loving caress. We knew we were loved, and we perceived for a moment that was outside of space and time, ourselves, in His loving gaze. We experienced that creative moment, and in a mysterious way, we remember. And for the rest of our lives we seek to re-experience, remember, relive and return to, that moment of pure grace. If we let ourselves feel it fully, we suffer. We suffer from the lack, the emptiness, the void created by remembering the fullness we once felt. It never goes away, it can't… and it shouldn't, since it is the driving force of our life existence. We suffer so much from it that often we try to ignore it, or fill it with something else, or someone else. What creature can replace the creator? What love can we feel here on earth that can make us forget? How many times do we have to obtain a temporary satisfaction to quell the dissatisfaction? Yet this suffering is our greatest good. What would happen to us if we stopped suffering in this way? We would, without question, stop seeking God. If we are satisfied, why seek for more?
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